It has been awhile.

I have a job that I enjoy. It gets tough at times but its worth it because its enabling me to take care of my daughter and enjoy going back to school while supporting us.
I have a roomate who happens to be my best friend. It gets hard competing for her time with her other friends but it has to be something that im going to get over.
I have the most amazing brilliant daughter any mother could dream of. Shes the reason I wake every morning and I want to give her the world as best as I can.
I have great classes and am managing school rather well while taking on all that I have. I am proud of where ive gotten thus far.
So if all this good is going where are all these sad hurt feelings coming from? Why do I wake up hurting on the inside all the time? Why do I go to bed half crying on a nightly basis? How do I fix it?

Tough Days

I knew it would come. The day where everything would hit me and I would get overwhelmed. Today was that day. Its Friday September 4th 2009 and all I could think about was how sick Rilee is and how I had to miss class to get her from school to get her some medicine and to make sure she was ok. I think that im going to snuggle with her tonight. I have been doing really good at work and staying on top of things in school. It is a bit much to take in but I know that if I breathe right that I will be able to handle it. Look how far I have come since Rilee was born. Nick hasnt even bothered to ask if im ok... or how things are. He uses facebook on a daily basis and didnt bother to respond or inquire about how Rilee is doing. You would think that as a father he would be able to step up at least a little bit. But of course this isnt something he is able to do.
Amy is moving in with Rilee and I! Yay. More money coming in. A friend here most of the time I need her. And someone I can love more and more! I cant wait to have my best friend living with me. It will be fun and awesome! And less stress cause I know Amy will help me when I need a moment! I love my life!