My year ends like this?

Really. Its 930pm and I am sitting on my couch in the dark on New Years Eve. My soon to be ex roommate is out with her family doing "family" things and aside from Katie who nicely invited me over to her apt...not a single one of my "friends" asked if I wanted to hang out or do something tonight. I guess being a single mom really has its hardships.
Today I got to spend 2.5 hours talking to a lawyer about how best to "DEAL" with the situation with Nick and how I should do things in order to maximize the relationship he has with Rilee. Really? I need to do more...I think not.
I barely get to talk to Josh because of my insane phone bill. I need to make some new friends but I am really not sure how to do so. Ugh. 2010 you better be a better year and I promise it wont be for a lack of me trying!
To all that read these... Happy New Year my cookie dough and I need to have a little "alone" time!

"HOME" For the Holidays..

Rilee and I made it to Antioch by 5:30 Christmas Eve to spend the evening with Rilee's Great Grandma and Grandpa. It was a wonderful evening and she had so much fun playing with her second cousin (maybe... I have difficulties figuring these things out) Christopher who is 2.5. They were adorable playing together and even spent some "grown up" time sitting on the couch together reading Better Homes and Gardens magazines.
We spent the night there and woke in the morning to breakfast and presents. It was so good to see some family. Then we drove about 30 mins to my Uncle Marks house where my dad and step mom and a WHOLE sleuth of family was. Tri-tip and potatoes and yummy pasta? I THINK YES thats the best Christmas Dinner EVER!
We drove home last night because Rilee didnt sleep very well while we were there and I wanted her to sleep in her own bed. Then this morning we woke up and had Roommate Christmas with Amy. It was fun and we went to Marvins where we decided all we wanted for Christmas was our 2 EMTs.
Life is good!
Oh and PS Nick is getting married. LOL.

Mediation Mayhem

Monday December 21st, 2009

So as some of you know Nick and I are in a custody battle over Rilee. I never expected my life to get to the point where I would have to fight over the one thing that makes me a better person constantly, but here I am awaiting the fate of such things. Today we were supposed to attend mandatory mediation. As in...we both had to sit in front of someone and discuss what we wanted for our child. He didn't show up. He didn't call in. He didn't file papers for an extension or seem to make any effort in making today work. When confronted he tried lying to me about his lawyer talking with them as we spoke which isn't possible for a couple reasons. 1. Because Mediation is between Nick and I with SUPPORT from lawyers if needed. 2. Because Nick never filed that he even had a lawyer which proves that he was lying. and 3. Because I was on the freeway going HOME after I had to wait 30 minutes to see if he would make contact. So he lied AGAIN. Now we go to court. January 12th and I hope that at that point things are solved and I can go home to my baby girl and my old life without this stress. I love my daughter more than anything and I really wont be able to handle life if he comes to take her. UGH.

Lil Miss is in bed...

Friday December 18th, 2009
Today was Rilee's last day of daycare until intersession in 2 weeks. That means a whole lot of MOMMY&ME time with her and I cant wait. The picture is from her school. They got professional pictures done and its soooooo cute right? I work only a couple days this week so it should be good and we are going to my biological grandparents house in Antioch for the Holidays. I am excited to see everyone again but I know that I will also be stressed.
I hate the holidays but hopefully they will get better soon! My bf Josh comes home in 29 days-ish and I cant wait to finally have him here to hold. Life has been crazy lately. I am registered for classes next semester and I am happy to have that out of the way. I was reading my report today and it says that I should be graduating Fall 2011! That really isnt that far off. That is July of 11 meaning thats a year and a half until im done. That is so close! I predict that itll be more like Spring 12 which is 4 months later because I dont want to cram everything into semesters just to graduate. Still havent a clear idea on what im going to do with my degree in psychology but I will be happy to just have things done and more time for my baby girl.
I need to start updating this more often but I just need to REMEMBER to do so!